Dear Reader, I wish I understood what brings me to a wandering place. Can you relate to the feeling of getting up and just not being able to get to the desk? Sure, I took the early walk, ate the special foods prescribed by my nutritionist--designed for a late fall liver cleanse. I vacuumed the carpet because I couldn't bear to lie on it to do my exercises. I emptied the compost and fed the chickens. I made the spare bed and called the repair man to fix the dryer. I raked the leaves, cleaned the gutters and hung the Christmas lights.
But it was all wandering, following the next impulse rather than the plan. And no phone calls were made. Mostly I noticed and didn't get overly self critical. Our scroll this month (Og Mandino's The Greatest Secret in the World) begins with the certainty of failure no matter how wonderful the goals and plans if no action is taken. The mantra is "I will act now". the first week and even the second week reading this scroll 3 times a day, I noticed myself completing little tasks that had gone undone for months. I am still reading Bryan Tracy's Maximum Achievement which is a manual for how to make your dreams concrete, prepare mentally for success and how to take the steps necessary to achieve the results you want. I am sure of my goals. I can picture them in the present tense.
Nevertheless, these last few days I could only notice how my day filled up with endless driving children and grandchildren places, meeting deadlines for other projects unrelated to my business goals and then spending the remaining possible productive moments watching a movie or working a challenging puzzle that's been sitting on my table for nearly a year (it's a spherical puzzle of the globe, extremely difficult especially putting the Pacific Ocean together).
My sleep has been troubled with dreams of the most fantastic kind so I awaken without being fully rested. I haven't been able to write either my memoir exercises or this blog. I could only notice this wandering in the dessert kind of feeling and undirected action.
Today something shifted and I feel as though I am back without any real understanding of what was going on. It is my nature to analysis "why" to death, and I could share some thoughts about that. Reasons abound. And sometimes they stop us. Mostly I keep going, managing my moods and working through them. I'm glad to be back. There will be business action tomorrow and the day after that and then comes Thanksgiving. Family time.
A blessed Thanksgiving to you. May you feel the gratitude rising from the bottom of your heart.
Betsy
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